boyfriend said he has 1 week and 4 more days left in sg. then i realised, i have exactly 2 weeks left. :S time flies.
kinda looking forward to going back. sianned of staying home or going out kinda lifestyle. not productive, rather boring cos everyone is so darn busy.
ok not everyone's fault. i've been rejecting going out. but hey, i dont want to go out. i wanna chill at home and i wanna look for friends i can do that with. apparantly, singaporeans likes to go out. zzz...
kinda sianned w friendship issues. im not putting in the right kind of effort to keep things going. i'm kinda lazy to go out to meet friends, keep in touch w them n stuffs.
have to change... but laziness gets over me. i dont wanna go out. someone chill at home w me? sian to socialise w so many ppl so many times so meaninglessly.
ok. i sound unappreciative of my friends. but i do appreciate special people i keep close to my heart although i always ps them and make them do all the planning. i know it's kinda tiring to plan n organize. thanks for asking me out n stuffs, n thanks for always organizing! ur effort is super apprieciated!
so for the time being, i'm whiny abt going out but that doesn't mean i love u all less. i just love going out less only! :D
2 weeks left in sg.
stressed yet excited. hope i get my foot on the right track this time.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
171
SIANNNNNNED
super sianned mood just now when my dad KEEP nagging at me while driving.
dad: "arisa no!!", "arisa slow down!", "arisa stop", "arisa change lane!"....
arisa this arisa that! wahlau eh! i can see the road myself! I'M NOT BLIND!
but then again he says that cos he is worried. i understand.
but when u are driving, that's those are the last thing u wanna hear.
in the end... i was super dulan. so i drove at 50km/hr all the way from clementi to upper thomson.
hope u liked the ride dad!
i know i shouldnt be angry... but hais i cannot help it.
anw, class challet was kinda disaster. but what's public nuisance without a disaster? tried to start fire at about 7 but fire only started at about 9:45! we were all starving. haha. but the girls were just playing in the room n chatting n taking pictures, n having fun. <3 the girls! :D really love them.
i was super tired that i fell asleep n didnt get to eat beibeimian w them for supper, didnt get to play cards n stuffs :'( boooooo to my sleepyness!
next day went for mac breakfast. we had a vote, subway or macs. the guys won the vote for subway, but we ended up eating macs anw. girls rocks! <3 the girls. :D
went to play at wildwild wet. so funny. kh is scared of the rides n he rather play spray water to the kids. the kids also entertain him. shoot water to him. lol. the highlight of the day was the kid's play place. hahaha. so ironical. and once again, successful attempt for public nuisance. :P
got sun BURN! not tan. how sad. body aching all over. :(
ok that's all folks for now.
oh n a bit upset that cannot upload the zoo pics w boyfriend. it was a great date. <3 valeron :D
super sianned mood just now when my dad KEEP nagging at me while driving.
dad: "arisa no!!", "arisa slow down!", "arisa stop", "arisa change lane!"....
arisa this arisa that! wahlau eh! i can see the road myself! I'M NOT BLIND!
but then again he says that cos he is worried. i understand.
but when u are driving, that's those are the last thing u wanna hear.
in the end... i was super dulan. so i drove at 50km/hr all the way from clementi to upper thomson.
hope u liked the ride dad!
i know i shouldnt be angry... but hais i cannot help it.
anw, class challet was kinda disaster. but what's public nuisance without a disaster? tried to start fire at about 7 but fire only started at about 9:45! we were all starving. haha. but the girls were just playing in the room n chatting n taking pictures, n having fun. <3 the girls! :D really love them.
i was super tired that i fell asleep n didnt get to eat beibeimian w them for supper, didnt get to play cards n stuffs :'( boooooo to my sleepyness!
next day went for mac breakfast. we had a vote, subway or macs. the guys won the vote for subway, but we ended up eating macs anw. girls rocks! <3 the girls. :D
went to play at wildwild wet. so funny. kh is scared of the rides n he rather play spray water to the kids. the kids also entertain him. shoot water to him. lol. the highlight of the day was the kid's play place. hahaha. so ironical. and once again, successful attempt for public nuisance. :P
got sun BURN! not tan. how sad. body aching all over. :(
ok that's all folks for now.
oh n a bit upset that cannot upload the zoo pics w boyfriend. it was a great date. <3 valeron :D
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
170
sloth.
was suppose to help organize class challet (BBQ) but then im making jieying do all the work, msging ppl, blablabla. feel bad that she has sch n she has to do all this stuff when im slacking at home.
i thought i've decided that in 2010 im not gonna be lazy. but seems so hard. someone help!
haipai has finished :'( like so fast. but i think if it was longer than this it would be too draggy. ending was not satisfactory for me. i want a happy FUNNY ending. it was just a HAPPY ending. :S:S but i guess i shall be appreciative of what's given. contentment in life :D
class challet soon. busy busy. hope it turns out fun :D my 1st challet in my life. i know i shouldnt be expecting so much. hehe. im not la. it's just bbq and hanging out w guys, like usual... but still it's challet!
listening to my fav song now. but i like it better when boyfriend sings it to me :)
ok off for breakfast. :D bye!
was suppose to help organize class challet (BBQ) but then im making jieying do all the work, msging ppl, blablabla. feel bad that she has sch n she has to do all this stuff when im slacking at home.
i thought i've decided that in 2010 im not gonna be lazy. but seems so hard. someone help!
haipai has finished :'( like so fast. but i think if it was longer than this it would be too draggy. ending was not satisfactory for me. i want a happy FUNNY ending. it was just a HAPPY ending. :S:S but i guess i shall be appreciative of what's given. contentment in life :D
class challet soon. busy busy. hope it turns out fun :D my 1st challet in my life. i know i shouldnt be expecting so much. hehe. im not la. it's just bbq and hanging out w guys, like usual... but still it's challet!
listening to my fav song now. but i like it better when boyfriend sings it to me :)
ok off for breakfast. :D bye!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
169
i havent been a good sister to both my sisters. i alway thought they were flawless. maybe that was just family bias.
i never realise how much stress and suffering they've been through. i always thought they shine out just by being them. i always thought it was just in them to be successful. i secretly envy their lives. but i never helped them in their shitty times. i didnt even realise they even had those times too.
my sisters are cheerful in nature. they laugh and they smile, unlike me. they accomplish things. while they have such a useless elder sister. i never want to be a bad influence to them. well, i probably succeeded in that cos i couldnt even be someone of an influence to them. i always mind my own business and paid so little attention to them.
they did cry out for help. it was subtle but if i had paid attention, i could have been there for them? or could i?
their lives, their character, their achievements. they are all better than mine. they are diciplined, they are hardworking, they have a glow in life, they dont escape from sufferage. looking back in life, i dont have much to be proud of. in fact, my bowl is empty. i only eat on other people's success and glory and make them mine.
i never knew my sis felt alone at home.
i never knew they didnt like to see the family turning this way.
dont get me wrong. i have a great family, probably better off than a lot of my friends'. but nothing is perfect. i know i should be contented with what i have, but i remember the family used to be better.
all i can do now is to do what i can. i dont have to achieve results today. but if i work a small amount everyday, it could be a bit of a damage control. i am banging on it.
watching them, there's more for me to learn from them as compared to what i can give. and they inspire and motivate me. i am thankful i have them.
sorry for sounding emo.
i never realise how much stress and suffering they've been through. i always thought they shine out just by being them. i always thought it was just in them to be successful. i secretly envy their lives. but i never helped them in their shitty times. i didnt even realise they even had those times too.
my sisters are cheerful in nature. they laugh and they smile, unlike me. they accomplish things. while they have such a useless elder sister. i never want to be a bad influence to them. well, i probably succeeded in that cos i couldnt even be someone of an influence to them. i always mind my own business and paid so little attention to them.
they did cry out for help. it was subtle but if i had paid attention, i could have been there for them? or could i?
their lives, their character, their achievements. they are all better than mine. they are diciplined, they are hardworking, they have a glow in life, they dont escape from sufferage. looking back in life, i dont have much to be proud of. in fact, my bowl is empty. i only eat on other people's success and glory and make them mine.
i never knew my sis felt alone at home.
i never knew they didnt like to see the family turning this way.
dont get me wrong. i have a great family, probably better off than a lot of my friends'. but nothing is perfect. i know i should be contented with what i have, but i remember the family used to be better.
all i can do now is to do what i can. i dont have to achieve results today. but if i work a small amount everyday, it could be a bit of a damage control. i am banging on it.
watching them, there's more for me to learn from them as compared to what i can give. and they inspire and motivate me. i am thankful i have them.
sorry for sounding emo.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
168
up down up down up down.
want to talk about it. but dont want to talk about it.
want sometime alone. alone. alone.
want to talk about it. but dont want to talk about it.
want sometime alone. alone. alone.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
167
when you said that i'm always passive it made me :(
and now when u said i'm not that passive, it made me :)
i miss you.
and now when u said i'm not that passive, it made me :)
i miss you.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
166
HAI PAI TIAN XIN!
going to finish soon. ahhhhh next episode n it's OVER :'( but super like the show. my sister is CRAZY. she went to buy both show n rainie yang's album. i hear hai pai's soundtrack everyday (almost).
went to look for class BBQ stuffs. hopefully can buy good stuff within budget. hope have enough budget to plan greater things too. :S
so my life is not as happening as everyone else, but it's quite a drama. and i'm kinda in a mood to stirr up some gossip. (oh some ppl may hate me aft this but as long as my good friends stands beside me, i dont really care! :P) but being a procastinator, things may not happen.
feel like im already starting my aunty life even before youth is over. i dont understand what's my rush. i wanna be youthful again. someone rejuvinate me!
ok time for Gossip Girls.
going to finish soon. ahhhhh next episode n it's OVER :'( but super like the show. my sister is CRAZY. she went to buy both show n rainie yang's album. i hear hai pai's soundtrack everyday (almost).
went to look for class BBQ stuffs. hopefully can buy good stuff within budget. hope have enough budget to plan greater things too. :S
so my life is not as happening as everyone else, but it's quite a drama. and i'm kinda in a mood to stirr up some gossip. (oh some ppl may hate me aft this but as long as my good friends stands beside me, i dont really care! :P) but being a procastinator, things may not happen.
feel like im already starting my aunty life even before youth is over. i dont understand what's my rush. i wanna be youthful again. someone rejuvinate me!
ok time for Gossip Girls.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
165
love is when u can make the other party feel that they are flawless even though in reality, no one is perfect.
and most importantly, love works when it's two ways.
so i went to KL for a short trip. KL is a land of shopping. but boyfriend says KL cannot beat taiwan! ah i sooooo need to go taiwan. maybe next summer. :D
duck rice in KL was great! i'm so gonna miss it. and had nice muaaahhhhhcheee. i dont know how to spell that u see.. dapaoed muaaahhhcheee home and forced misato to eat it when she was already going to be late to meet her friend. well, i knew she cant say NO to food :P
hmm but im glad im back to sg. i'm so scared of walking in the streets, and i absolutely hate the traffic jam there. and KL was not very clean :/ the air was so smoky (both from the pollution from the cars and people SMOKING, ew to the people smoking!). i think i wont be visiting KL that often in the future. no offence but even though bangkok was dirty n as dangerous as KL is, i enjoyed Bangkok so much more.. maybe it's cos it was with public nuisance :D (<3 to jieying, traces, n cynthia)
i went to KL with boyfriend. somehow the trip ended with some sour moments. but then it's a great learning lesson, or rather a great reflecting session. and i always feel, we are growing stronger as we quarrel or fight. and at the final moments of the trip, we were a happy couple again. :)
anw need to meet jieying to do some aunty duties. have to drag her into my auntiness :D i know you are such a GOOD FRIEND you wouldnt mind my auntiness :P
that's all folks!
and most importantly, love works when it's two ways.
so i went to KL for a short trip. KL is a land of shopping. but boyfriend says KL cannot beat taiwan! ah i sooooo need to go taiwan. maybe next summer. :D
duck rice in KL was great! i'm so gonna miss it. and had nice muaaahhhhhcheee. i dont know how to spell that u see.. dapaoed muaaahhhcheee home and forced misato to eat it when she was already going to be late to meet her friend. well, i knew she cant say NO to food :P
hmm but im glad im back to sg. i'm so scared of walking in the streets, and i absolutely hate the traffic jam there. and KL was not very clean :/ the air was so smoky (both from the pollution from the cars and people SMOKING, ew to the people smoking!). i think i wont be visiting KL that often in the future. no offence but even though bangkok was dirty n as dangerous as KL is, i enjoyed Bangkok so much more.. maybe it's cos it was with public nuisance :D (<3 to jieying, traces, n cynthia)
i went to KL with boyfriend. somehow the trip ended with some sour moments. but then it's a great learning lesson, or rather a great reflecting session. and i always feel, we are growing stronger as we quarrel or fight. and at the final moments of the trip, we were a happy couple again. :)
anw need to meet jieying to do some aunty duties. have to drag her into my auntiness :D i know you are such a GOOD FRIEND you wouldnt mind my auntiness :P
that's all folks!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
164
dependence.
days are fine, fine when im with boyfriend.
but once he is gone, clouds suddenly seem to appear.
mood changes and i feel so lost.
i wonder if my love is true.
it feels so real.
but makes me doubt whether im just being too dependent on him.
am i together with him just cos im dependent?
or am i together with him cos i really love him?
could i love him n be absolutely dependent on him?
but i really feel so happy when im with him.
and i would never seek for anyone else.
i would never wish for any other.
i would never want something else.
i just want him.
but is it cos im dependent?
or is it cos i really love him.
i really do believe it's love.
but why is it when he is gone, i feel so down?
but then again, maybe it was just one incident to think too much about it.
please dont hurt boyfriend.
i hurt a lot too.
please tell me that i can believe it's love.
please tell me that we are real.
can i have some faith in myself?
days are fine, fine when im with boyfriend.
but once he is gone, clouds suddenly seem to appear.
mood changes and i feel so lost.
i wonder if my love is true.
it feels so real.
but makes me doubt whether im just being too dependent on him.
am i together with him just cos im dependent?
or am i together with him cos i really love him?
could i love him n be absolutely dependent on him?
but i really feel so happy when im with him.
and i would never seek for anyone else.
i would never wish for any other.
i would never want something else.
i just want him.
but is it cos im dependent?
or is it cos i really love him.
i really do believe it's love.
but why is it when he is gone, i feel so down?
but then again, maybe it was just one incident to think too much about it.
please dont hurt boyfriend.
i hurt a lot too.
please tell me that i can believe it's love.
please tell me that we are real.
can i have some faith in myself?
Friday, January 15, 2010
163
there's something i wanna do, and with my boyfriend.
i wanna learn diving w him! but i think it would be much more fun if i do it with my friends.. but im too sticky to him. can't let him miss out on this goodness too!
but of course, there are many many other thing i wanna do too, before i go back to canby.
1. eat chomp chomp & prawn mee
2. ponggol nasilemak
3. sing song
4. watch lots of movie (namely wang leehom movie and valentine's day.. might have a few more though :P)
5. have a BBQ! wheeeeee~!
6. ice skating/ECPing w boyfriend (w friends also fun but w boyfriend it will be funny :P)
7. MAKAN SUTRA! (in malaysia too!)
a lil not looking forward to going back anymore. im not prepared. life here is too slack alr! haha. boyfriend help me!
i wanna learn diving w him! but i think it would be much more fun if i do it with my friends.. but im too sticky to him. can't let him miss out on this goodness too!
but of course, there are many many other thing i wanna do too, before i go back to canby.
1. eat chomp chomp & prawn mee
2. ponggol nasilemak
3. sing song
4. watch lots of movie (namely wang leehom movie and valentine's day.. might have a few more though :P)
5. have a BBQ! wheeeeee~!
6. ice skating/ECPing w boyfriend (w friends also fun but w boyfriend it will be funny :P)
7. MAKAN SUTRA! (in malaysia too!)
a lil not looking forward to going back anymore. im not prepared. life here is too slack alr! haha. boyfriend help me!
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